Poetry & Resources
from Everyday Radiance
At times, in Everyday Radiance, I suggest that you read certain poems or pieces of writing to complement certain days. I've included all of those poems in full below. Take the time to read them slowly and out loud. Reading poetry aloud changes the texture of the words and your understanding of them.
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Also be sure to scroll to the very bottom where I've offered links to every book/song/film, etc mentioned in the book! Happy diving!
POETRY REFERENCED IN EVERYDAY RADIANCE
ARIES
1. One by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 11
2. It is I Who Must Begin by Vaclav Havel, page 26
3. Morning Light by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 31
TAURUS
4. Slower Still by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 46
5. Notes From My Father’s Talk by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 62
GEMINI
6. The Blessing of Breathing by Jan Richardson, page 95
LEO
7. What to Do with Sadness by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 149
8. You are a Poem by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 150
VIRGO
9. Altars by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 194
10. Blessing for the Body by Jan Richardson, page 196
LIBRA
11. Out of a Great Need by Hafiz, page 202
12. The Swan by Rainer Maria Rilke, page 215
SCORPIO
13. I Want to Tell You by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 237
14. Love Sorrow by Mary Oliver, page 240
SAGITTARIUS
15. Freedom Yet to Find by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 277
16. The Quivering by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 281
AQUARUIS
17. I Can No Longer Be Contained by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 329
18. Sometimes a Wild God by Tom Hirons, page 342
19. Wild Compassion by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 346
PISCES
20. Nameless by Heidi Rose Robbins, page 361
21. Instructions for the Journey by Pat Schneider, page 378
1.
One
By Heidi Rose Robbins
One (intimate) glance can open something long
closed
within us.
One (full) breath can ease
an ancient fear.
One (tender) touch can soothe unspeakable
pain.
One (loving) word can soften
the armored heart.
One (radical) thought can spark unfathomable
daring.
One (courageous) step can change forever the
course of a life.
2.
It Is I Who Must Begin
By Václav Havel
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It is I who must begin.
Once I begin, once I try —
here and now,
right where I am,
not excusing myself
by saying things
would be easier elsewhere,
without grand speeches and
ostentatious gestures,
but all the more persistently
— to live in harmony
with the “voice of Being,” as I
understand it within myself
— as soon as I begin that,
I suddenly discover,
to my surprise, that
I am neither the only one,
nor the first,
nor the most important one
to have set out
upon that road.
Whether all is really lost
or not depends entirely on
whether or not I am lost.
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3.
Morning Light
By Heidi Rose Robbins
The early hour.
The scent of something past.
The growing light in the sky.
The wisp of cloud.
The crispness of morning.
The chisel of mountain top.
The rawness of my heart.
The whisper of the possible.
The ripening of the orange grove.
The stillness that softens.
The bowl of tea.
The new face in the mirror.
4.
Slower Still
By Heidi Rose Robbins
In this
Mad rush
World,
We are gifted
Two words.
Two
Little
Words.
I will whisper them
To you.
Slower still.
Slower still,
My loves.
The sun wants
To linger
On our skin.
Our bodies
Want rest.
Our breath?
Slower still.
Our heart beat?
Slower still.
Let us lie down
Upon the earth.
The whole
Of the beautiful world
Has something to say
But certain languages
Are only heard here.
Slower still.
The trees know
When we have
Fully surrendered.
Only then will they
converse.
Slower still,
My loves.
The press of time
Holds no sway
here.
Let time pass.
It will pass.
It passes.
But this
Cradled
Nowness
Lives.
5.
Notes from My Father’s Talk
By Heidi Rose Robbins
Let everything good increase in me.
Let me be teachable and live a life pledged to the Path of Love.
May I be a steady beacon of light.
At least, let me be useful.
How can I best serve?
There is no time to lose and still I need not rush.
6.
Blessing of Breathing
by Jan Richardson
That the first breath will come without fear.
That the second breath will come without pain.
The third breath: that it will come without despair.
And the fourth, without anxiety.
That the fifth breath will come with no bitterness.
That the sixth breath will come for joy.
Breath seven: that it will come for love.
May the eighth breath come for freedom.
And the ninth, for delight.
When the tenth breath comes, may it be for us
to breathe together, and the next, and the next,
until our breathing is as one,
until our breathing is no more.
7.
What to Do with Sadness
by Heidi Rose Robbins
When sadness lingers,
When loneliness creeps in to sit beside you
And will not leave,
When you can no longer feel a spark of joy
In even a hidden corner,
Find something,
Anything
That is burning--
A star
A porch lamp
A candle on the table.
Then, imagine that light
At the center of your heart
And remember
You are molten love.
The only thing to do
With sadness
Is to introduce it to
Indestructible Beauty--
To the flame
Of love
Present in every
Living thing.
Start with a
Morning glory
Or a sparrow.
Start with the
Spirited eyes
Of the woman
Who serves you
Coffee.
Start with a poem.
Say,
Sadness meet cherry blossom.
Despair meet the Ninth Symphony.
Grief meet the eyes of a child.
And then,
Be very, very quiet,
Take a few deep breaths,
And let them converse for a time.
8.
You are a Poem
By Heidi Rose Robbins
You
Are a poem.
Your birth,
A captured moment
Of the mystery.
Your intricate design,
A gift of planets
Dancing.
You
Are a poem.
Each part of you
Specifically chosen
To be read aloud,
Into the world,
Born to unfurl
Your vibrant freedom.
A map of the heavens
Illumined through your song,
Your invitation,
Ever and always,
To follow that map,
Walk in love,
Live the poetry
You are.
9.
Altars
By Heidi Rose Robbins
Make of your day an altar
And with great care
Place what you wish to honor
At its center.
Make of your day an altar
and give it
the flower of your attention
The fullness of your presence.
Make this day an altar
Offer you love
To its hurried minutes
And pressing hours.
Make of this day
A living altar.
Feel the blessing
It bestows upon you.
Stand before it
Ready to begin.
10.
Blessing the Body
By Jan Richardson
This blessing takes
one look at you
and all it can say is
holy.
Holy hands.
Holy face.
Holy feet.
Holy everything
in between.
Holy even in pain.
Holy even when weary.
In brokenness, holy.
In shame, holy still.
Holy in delight.
Holy in distress.
Holy when being born.
Holy when we lay it down
at the hour of our death.
So, friend,
open your eyes
(holy eyes).
For one moment
see what this blessing sees,
this blessing that knows
how you have been formed
and knit together
in wonder and
in love.
Welcome this blessing
that folds its hands
in prayer
when it meets you;
receive this blessing
that wants to kneel
in reverence
before you:
you who are
temple,
sanctuary,
home for God
in this world.
11.
Out of a Great Need
By Hafiz, translated by Daniel Ladinsky
Out
Of a great need
We are all holding hands And climbing.
Not loving is a letting go. Listen,
The terrain around here Is
Far too Dangerous
For
That.
12.
The Swan
By Rainer Maria Rilke, translated by Robert Bly
This clumsy living that moves lumbering
as if in ropes through what is not done,
reminds us of the awkward way the swan walks.
And to die, which is the letting go
of the ground we stand on and cling to every day,
is like the swan, when he nervously lets himself down into the water, which receives him gaily
and which flows joyfully under
and after him, wave after wave,
while the swan, unmoving and marvelously calm,
is pleased to be carried, each moment more fully grown, more like a king, further and further on.
13.
I Want to Tell You
By Heidi Rose Robbins
I want to tell you that I speak of light
because my body often
feels like a hard, knotted thing,
I sing of love
because caution caught in my throat
thirty years ago and I’m still trying to
spit it out.
I want to tell you
I feel raw
when I speak what is
closest to my heart,
that I look for a jaded disguise,
that who I love, what I love and how I love
make me tremble.
I want to tell you
that some days
I wear darkness like a cool leather jacket,
feel its weight, its protection, its belonging.
But more days, I want to strip,
letting illusion fall around my feet
and stand witnessed as a body.
I want to tell you that I am tired.
But I am willing.
I want to tell you that sometimes
the right words
scrawled on a page
save my life.
14.
Love Sorrow
By Mary Oliver
Love sorrow. She is yours now, and you must
take care of what has been
given. Brush her hair, help her
into her little coat, hold her hand,
especially when crossing a street. For, think,
what if you should lose her? Then you would be
sorrow yourself; her drawn face, her sleeplessness
would be yours. Take care, touch
her forehead that she feel herself not so
utterly alone. And smile, that she does not
altogether forget the world before the lesson.
Have patience in abundance. And do not
ever lie or ever leave her even for a moment
by herself, which is to say, possibly, again,
abandoned. She is strange, mute, difficult,
sometimes unmanageable but, remember, she is a child.
And amazing things can happen. And you may see,
as the two of you go
walking together in the morning light, how
little by little she relaxes; she looks about her;
she begins to grow.
15.
Freedom Yet To Find
by Heidi Rose Robbins
If there’s a shred, ounce
scrap, swath, field
of freedom yet to find --
set me on that course,
put me on that plane
(though fear of flight
reduces me
to quivering flesh).
I will board
lunge from boredom
assume make shift wings
say farewell to what’s known--
invite
the impossible,
the implausible
the improbable.
If there’s a pool, galaxy,
snippet, cup
of freedom yet to find
Bring it to my lips
let me drink
though I may shrink,
stumble
or disappear,
I will consume
what scares me
and know
the magic of peacock
who gobbles
red ant poison
but walks unscathed
as beauty.
What is known is always knocking.
You do not have to answer.
Fling open the back door
to the YES
of unspeakable light
and boundless time.
The invitation ever exists--
if there is a hint,
whiff, touch,
whisper of freedom
left to find
Ready your ship
Let the winds blow
Refuse the map of
discovered worlds.
Let love be your compass.
Set sail.
16.
The Quivering
By Heidi Rose Robbins
If we but make friends
with the quivering,
the subtle and not so subtle shaking of the body
and all its parts,
letting go
of what we’ve held onto long enough,
If we but soften our grasp
on who we have always been,
to make room for
what can be
knowing not
what may appear,
knowing only
the quivering,
(And I ask,
Is not some part of us always dying?)
(And I ask,
Are we not everyday in some small way reborn?)
Then, just as the
wild animal shakes off the fear of attack, we too can
shake
off the fears that want to eat us whole.
We can walk
barefoot in the woods with a quiver of arrows,
cautious of what
still wants to ensnare us, but alive with the
light emanating
from our newly
trodden path.
Are we not path makers? So we are.
Are we not path finders? So we are.
Do arrows not quiver
before they are loosed into the world? Then so must
we.
Finally,
we are archer and arrow at once
sprung into the wind carried swiftly,
silently,
precisely
to our
very
heart,
pierced and present.
17.
I Can No Longer Be Contained
By Heidi Rose Robbins
I can no longer be contained.
I’m busting out like a storm.
I’m the weather baby
and it’s okay
to rearrange
shake it up
rain it down
like a torrent
like a lightning strike,
sweet spring rain.
I can no longer be contained,
because I am breathing now
all the way down to the belly
of who I am
and I am tired of constraint
of holding myself back
tied up
tied down
wrapped in doubt,
Retraction
Contraction
Subtraction.
I am pacing like a pregnant rhino
and I’ve been pregnant for a long time.
It’s birth time baby.
It’s the season of birth.
I am a woman in my prime,
like a number that cannot be divided.
It’s time to own it,
Full out time to
unfurl,
uncurl,
dance it out
dance it in
love.
I can’t stand still.
Don’t want to.
It’s not about composure.
It’s about composing.
I am breathing now
and speaking now
and my throat has become a
tunnel of love,
Can’t stop the truth,
it’s pouring out
And the truth is beauty
but sometimes hard to hear
because we are used to our complaint.
We are married to our fear.
We are enmeshed in our anger.
And that’s life, right?
It’s all good until we are tired of
what defines us,
what confines us.
It’s all good until we want something more that
doesn’t contain us,
that doesn’t constrain us.
I am pacing like a wild thing
who is hungry for her natural habitat.
It’s where it’s at.
It’s calling me now.
lush and green
and howling and free.
Free to be. you got it,
Free to be me.
18.
Sometimes a Wild God
By Tom Hirons
Sometimes a wild god comes to the table.
He is awkward and does not know the ways
Of porcelain, of fork and mustard and silver.
His voice makes vinegar from wine.
When the wild god arrives at the door,
You will probably fear him.
He reminds you of something dark
That you might have dreamt,
Or the secret you do not wish to be shared.
He will not ring the doorbell;
Instead he scrapes with his fingers
Leaving blood on the paintwork,
Though primroses grow
In circles round his feet.
You do not want to let him in.
You are very busy.
It is late, or early, and besides…
You cannot look at him straight
Because he makes you want to cry.
Your dog barks;
The wild god smiles.
He holds out his hand and
The dog licks his wounds,
Then leads him inside.
The wild god stands in your kitchen.
Ivy is taking over your sideboard;
Mistletoe has moved into the lampshades
And wrens have begun to sing
An old song in the mouth of your kettle.
‘I haven’t much,’ you say
And give him the worst of your food.
He sits at the table, bleeding.
He coughs up foxes.
There are otters in his eyes.
When your wife calls down,
You close the door and
Tell her it’s fine.
You will not let her see
The strange guest at your table.
The wild god asks for whiskey
And you pour a glass for him,
Then a glass for yourself.
Three snakes are beginning to nest
In your voicebox. You cough.
Oh, limitless space.
Oh, eternal mystery.
Oh, endless cycles of death and birth.
Oh, miracle of life.
Oh, the wondrous dance of it all.
You cough again,
Expectorate the snakes and
Water down the whiskey,
Wondering how you got so old
And where your passion went.
The wild god reaches into a bag
Made of moles and nightingale-skin.
He pulls out a two-reeded pipe,
Raises an eyebrow
And all the birds begin to sing.
The fox leaps into your eyes.
Otters rush from the darkness.
The snakes pour through your body.
Your dog howls and upstairs
Your wife both exults and weeps at once.
The wild god dances with your dog.
You dance with the sparrows.
A white stag pulls up a stool
And bellows hymns to enchantments.
A pelican leaps from chair to chair.
In the distance, warriors pour from their tombs.
Ancient gold grows like grass in the fields.
Everyone dreams the words to long-forgotten songs.
The hills echo and the grey stones ring
With laughter and madness and pain.
In the middle of the dance,
The house takes off from the ground.
Clouds climb through the windows;
Lightning pounds its fists on the table
And the moon leans in.
The wild god points to your side.
You are bleeding heavily.
You have been bleeding for a long time,
Possibly since you were born.
There is a bear in the wound.
‘Why did you leave me to die?’
Asks the wild god and you say:
‘I was busy surviving.
The shops were all closed;
I didn’t know how. I’m sorry.’
Listen to them:
The fox in your neck and
The snakes in your arms and
The wren and the sparrow and the deer…
The great un-nameable beasts
In your liver and your kidneys and your heart…
There is a symphony of howling.
A cacophony of dissent.
The wild god nods his head and
You wake on the floor holding a knife,
A bottle and a handful of black fur.
Your dog is asleep on the table.
Your wife is stirring, far above.
Your cheeks are wet with tears;
Your mouth aches from laughter or shouting.
A black bear is sitting by the fire.
Sometimes a wild god comes to the table.
He is awkward and does not know the ways
Of porcelain, of fork and mustard and silver.
His voice makes vinegar from wine
And brings the dead to life.
19.
Wild Compassion
By Heidi Rose Robbins
You know the days
when you’re better left alone and if you happen to be in
a dark corner
in a dark room
all the better for you
and everyone else
the days when not even sugar or
a stiff
drink
or your drug
of choice makes a shred of difference in the landscape of sorrow.
Or is it rage? Or fear?
Whatever your flavor of closing down curling up
slamming shut however you
refuse to shift,
deny the light
that just wants to
cast a splash
of hope across your cheek.
You know the days. When all you do
is sit
and stare,
can’t move your face to anything
but slack.
Lack everywhere. Lack of hope money motivation mojo
Doesn’t matter
how far I’ve traveled down any spiritual path equanimity
poise
objectivity
flung out the
window at dawn.
This life is a ride, people.
Anyone who preaches from a pulpit
and refuses to
acknowledge the unstoppable raging current
is not to be trusted.
The ones to listen to have a wild compassion in their eyes
that comes
from riding that current on a make shift raft crafted from
loss and resurrection.
Best thing to do
with a day like this
as far as I can tell
is muster up a nod to it
a generous nod
to the stranger walking through from parts unknown.
If you can find the words or even just lift your head Invite him in
for
coffee black.
Ask him why he’s come what he hopes
to find here in this
wild wild
wilderness.
Listen up.
He’ll mumble,
shed a tear.
He won’t make sense. Listen closely.
Say your farewells and
watch him walk into a fiery sunset. Watch him burn at the center
swallowed by the flames.
Lay your head on your pillow, and exhale.
Give it away, the stranger, your day,
all of it.
Die into the darkness
that will swallow your pain with its fierce love.
Set down your honorable load.
Then trust
this:
Morning light
will touch your cheek.
Your need only to turn
every so slightly toward it.
20.
Nameless
By Heidi Rose Robbins
We are not who we say we are.
There are no words for that name, none full enough.
Our name is a symphony,
a sunrise.
It is a name that holds all the sounds of silence.
We are not who we say we are Though we insist it is so.
Maybe we should listen for the name the sky has to offer,
the Redwood.
It would be loving and infinitely simple.
Let’s lay each name we’ve spoken
into a greater flame.
Let’s soften the grasp on what is only ours and breathe the terror,
the flush of freedom.
Let’s be nameless for a time
and listen.
21.
Instructions For the Journey
Pat Schneider
The self you leave behind
is only a skin you have outgrown.
Don’t grieve for it.
Look to the wet, raw, unfinished
self, the one you are becoming.
The world, too, sheds its skin:
politicians, cataclysms, ordinary days.
It’s easy to lose this tenderly
unfolding moment. Look for it
as if it were the first green blade
after a long winter. Listen for it
as if it were the first clear tone
in a place where dawn is heralded by bells.
And if all that fails,
wash your own dishes.
Rinse them.
Stand in your kitchen at your sink.
Let cold water run between your fingers.
Feel it.
OTHER REFERENCES IN EVERYDAY RADIANCE
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CANCER
Song: My House by Flo Rida, page 124
VIRGO
Movie: Mary Poppins with Julie Andrews, page 173
Julie Andrews Astrological Chart, page 173
Book: The Checklist Book by Alexandra Franzen, page 181
LIBRA
Song: Give Peace a Chance by John Lennon & Yoko Ono, page 212
Book: Miss Rumphius by Barbara Cooney, page 224
SAGITTARIUS
Book: The Innocents Abroad by Mark Twain, page 263
Television: Planet Earth or The Blue Planet, page 266
Book: Louise, The Adventures of a Chicken by Kate DiCamilo, page 276
Song: To Dream the Impossible Dream from Don Quixote, page 280
AQUARIUS
Film: Apollo 13
Alexandra Franzen’s newsletter, page 339
Moreloveletters.com, page 348
PISCES